Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Practicing unattachment

You can clearly see the similar color schemes, can't you?

I always knew that it was a good thing to have several paintings going at the same time. I've said this here many times and I've always tried to do that. There is always more than one unfinished painting in my studio at all times, for sure. But never, before this week, had I really taken full advantage of this...

And I'll explain.

I have this really annoying habit of not wanting any - ANY! - paint to go to waste. "Why is that annoying?", you may be asking. Because my attachment starts there! I'm so hung up on the fact that I mixed more paint than I need that I start using it all, even though I know I should stop. I just can't bare the thought of waste! See? Annoying.

So, anyway...

The other day I was trying to achieve a certain shade of purple and, when I finally got it, I had a TON of paint! This time, though, instead of covering the entire canvas with it, I grabbed a couple more substrates and started splashing the purple around!

After that, I started doing the same thing with all the colors I used: poured them on my palette and went from canvas to canvas... It's so "duh!", I know... I'm in a 'duh' week, I guess (see my previous post). 

All I can say is that, up until now, I'm having NO attachment issues. It is quite freeing to go from one painting to the next, applying color after color, completely unaware of what's gonna happen next.

I even let my daughter paint a little bit too. That's unattachment for ya!

If she is meant to be an artist and realizes that at age 3, more power to her!
It took me 33 years more than that!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

"A-ha" or "Duh" moment?

Today I was using, for the first time, a couple of new acrylic colors that I ordered for the (ahhhh!) Flora Bowley workshop I will be attending in 2 weeks (again: ahhhhh!). 

It was supposed to be very quick, I didn't have a lot of time to paint at that moment, so I just put a few colors on my palette, grabbed a brush and - get this - SAT DOWN! Wow! I'm painting sitting on the floor! Nice! Never done that before! Will be doing it more from now on.

So, 'a-ha' or 'duh' moment?

Maybe both.

PS: photo by my precious 3-year-old daughter. :-)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

oldie but goodie


Sometimes I challenge myself to only use a handful of colors on a painting...


...but it rarely works.


Truth is, I like color!

And when it's too much, you can always paint over it.

Why I can't do commissions just yet

In general, when I first started painting, my friends were very supportive of me and my art. Of course, being your friends, you kinda expect them to support you, but more than that, they seemed to genuinely like what I was doing. Even when I wasn't sure I did.

What really took me by surprise was the support of my not-so-close friends, acquaintaces, people that I only met twice or three times! When you put yourself out there, though, and have a blog, and a Facebook Biz Page, etc, that's what you want, ultimately: you want OTHER people (not only your close friends and supporters) too see your work and to hopefully fall in love with it. But when you do most of your marketing online, you don't realize that this is happening until you get their feedback, whether it's a comment in your blog or a "like" on Facebook.

There is this girl, in particular... she's friends with a few of my friends and we met a few times, at birthday parties and other social gatherings. So we're not very close and yet, every time I post a new picture on my Facebook, she leaves me a comment, and she cheers me on, she likes my paintings, and I sense she really wants me to succeed. This absolutely fills my heart with joy, to know that there is somebody out there rooting for me just "because"...

Anyway, the other day she asked me if I could do a painting with 2 boys. I only paint girls, for some reason, but she has two sons, so she wanted a boy painting. "I'll try". That's what I told her. A few days later I started 'trying'. The picture you see on top of this post is how that painting began.

But the whole time I was painting I wasn't 'feeling' it. It felt forced, planned, calculated. I usually start painting without any idea of where it's going, and this one already had an outcome from the get-go! I tried to keep going, because this is someone I really didn't want to disappoint. But it wasn't working; I couldn't finish it. Maybe she won't care so much when I tell her, but I do hope she understands my reasons and know that I really did try.

I am so not ready for commissions! :-(

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Letting my heart go free...

This painting has been ongoing for awhile now. At least for a month and half, according to this post, where I showed I technique I used here.

But that's my process, I always have a bunch of unfinished paintings at any given time. And I like it like that. Makes me worry less about their outcomes: if I 'mess up', there's always another one to work on.

Up until this stage (above), I was adding color after color, not thinking much about what I was doing or where I was going. Then, one day, I looked at one of the black lines and saw a face profile. So I went with it (below).

Everything started coming together after that... 
"What is that 'window' thing on the left?" - Maybe it's a bird cage.
"What is she looking at?" - Well, she's looking up, so, whatever it is, it has to be flying...hey, maybe it flew right out of that bird cage! It's her HEART! She's letting her heart go free! 

Still don't know if it's finished or not, but I like where it's going, and the story behind it. It has everything to do with me and where I am right now. I'm letting my heart (well, I'm trying, anyway) lead the way, guide me, show me what I'm looking for...

Tacky? Cliche? Well, maybe, but that's what I want now. Perhaps that's the World's Biggest Summit effect already and, if it is, even better. My heart is open.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


For my iMac, my iPhone, my iPad...thank you, Steve. 