I thought long and hard about this...not so simple to come up with ONE word to define your goals for the whole year, your hopes and dreams, your resolutions, your vision of how to get closer to the life you want for yourself. But I did it.
I have been known to - especially if you ask my dear hubby - get really excited about an idea, make plans, talk about it non-stop, get prepared and then...just drop it. Like it never happened. Like it was the most crazy idea ever. The last and most outrageous example was cake decorating.
|my daughter's 2nd birthday|
When my daughter was turning 2 I decided to make and decorate the cake myself. I had NEVER done that before, but for some reason I just assumed I would do a good job, and I had the idea for the cake already, so I did it. And I loved the result!
Long story short, I got so excited about it that a month later I had 2 "partners" and we had made cakes for all of our friends' kids birthdays. I was buying supplies, testing recipes, deciding on a name for our business and registering domain names.
|some of the cakes we decorated|
A month after that, one of my partner friends had basically dropped out (she wasn't really into it, plus she had a full time job), the other one was talking about going back to school to be a nurse, and I was frustrated with several failed cake recipes. Suddenly, I was like "Cake? Really?" And that was that. The "business" was over before it even had a name. Looking back, I still don't know what I was thinking...
But it is different with painting. It's self-expression, it's freedom, it's liberating... It's truly a passion. So I want to see it through. I want to see where it goes.
So my word for 2012 is PERSEVERANCE.
According to the dictionary, perseverance is steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., especially in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement. That is exactly it! This year I want to be able to look past the problems - the eventual lost of mojo to paint, the low sales period, the lack of time to make art - and persevere, hang in there. That way I'll know, whether or not I become a full time artist, that I gave it my best shot.
PS: one of my cake partners actually stuck by the idea (well, sort of). She is now selling Brazilian Truffles. She finally decided on a name - SUGARTRIX - and I truly hope she perseveres as well.